Dear diary,
Today, I made a biggest determination ever in my life. It's about my graduation present I will be given by my parents, which is a combined one with my birthday gift as it is coming up soon. Actually my determination is not about gifts:) It's about me going to China for the first time in my life, to join a three week Mandarin course in Huang-pu Business College. I asked them to get me a flight ticket to go there. When I first heard from Frank about this program, it seemed perfect because I can have some pre-knowledge about business studies before entering college. I have always wanted to study business, it was my dream. However, it not just that. The biggest thing is that I can have a chance to visit the place I was born, and where my birth parents live!
When I was young, I hated my name, Dong-Mei, my made-up birthday and the fact that I have two sets of mother and father. I did not want to hear anything about my old memories related to my birth and the reason I came here. I just could not imagine how different from others I am, being an adopted child, which really annoyed me. I wanted to think my self as a normal child of my mom and dad here in Canada. As I grew older, there was a growing interest on my home country inside me, and the key event which led this was the Tiananmen Spuare massacre. I did not know how the innocent citizens are killed, only because they protest the government. Soon after I saw this TV program, I started learning Mandarin. In two years time, I became able to have simple conversations, read and write some characters, which was totally new to me, but enjoyable.
Now, my goal now is to discover and find more about China, and my birth parents. I am glad that my mind has changed from what I had years ago. I will finally be able to meet my birth mom and dad, which makes me frustrated and nervous, but I am so desperate to overcome this problem. I know this is not an easy task, but I will do my best. I also hope that my parents here are not feeling bad about me going to China. I will always be their child!
Love, Maki
Today, I made a biggest determination ever in my life. It's about my graduation present I will be given by my parents, which is a combined one with my birthday gift as it is coming up soon. Actually my determination is not about gifts:) It's about me going to China for the first time in my life, to join a three week Mandarin course in Huang-pu Business College. I asked them to get me a flight ticket to go there. When I first heard from Frank about this program, it seemed perfect because I can have some pre-knowledge about business studies before entering college. I have always wanted to study business, it was my dream. However, it not just that. The biggest thing is that I can have a chance to visit the place I was born, and where my birth parents live!
When I was young, I hated my name, Dong-Mei, my made-up birthday and the fact that I have two sets of mother and father. I did not want to hear anything about my old memories related to my birth and the reason I came here. I just could not imagine how different from others I am, being an adopted child, which really annoyed me. I wanted to think my self as a normal child of my mom and dad here in Canada. As I grew older, there was a growing interest on my home country inside me, and the key event which led this was the Tiananmen Spuare massacre. I did not know how the innocent citizens are killed, only because they protest the government. Soon after I saw this TV program, I started learning Mandarin. In two years time, I became able to have simple conversations, read and write some characters, which was totally new to me, but enjoyable.
Now, my goal now is to discover and find more about China, and my birth parents. I am glad that my mind has changed from what I had years ago. I will finally be able to meet my birth mom and dad, which makes me frustrated and nervous, but I am so desperate to overcome this problem. I know this is not an easy task, but I will do my best. I also hope that my parents here are not feeling bad about me going to China. I will always be their child!
Love, Maki
